we spend our whole lives..
worrying about the future
planning for the future
trying to predict the future
as if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow
but the future is always changing
the future is the home of our deepest fears and our wildest hopes
but one thing is certain,
when it finally reveals itself
the future is never the way we imagined it
even if they think i'm wrong
even if they don't understand
even if they think i'm crazy
i'm me..
they're supposed to accept me
they're supposed to support me
they're supposed to love me
i can't lie
- grey's anatomy -
Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow,
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead,
Walk beside me, and just be my friend.- Albert Camus -
"what am i actually doing??"
this weekend which a day to make some progress in my 'thing', but actually i didn't touch it, all day..
i'm just watch this, watch that.. doing some bored thing.
and i've been trying to find my reason of being asking,"why?"
in a few days ago, i tried to be another me..i lied myself..
as much as i show my smile, as much as i laugh when i watch some jokes on TV, but thats only an alibi, like clothes thats only wrap the outer me..
The inner soul is fed by understanding ourselves to the fullest.
when we have some trouble, we should solve it together or maybe just let the other give us some advise.
And honestly, i just try this in my own family, when my mom had a trouble, i tried to hear her,and become a trusted person to her.
im trying to beside her, so everytime she need me, i'll always there..
i realize that many times that i spent just focus in my thing not her thing or they thing..
and it makes me upset, cos i feel.. it too late to be close to them (my family).
so guys, i warn this.. focusing ourselves on just OUR life would never benefit you, in any way..
understanding each other is a grateful thing, it can make us feel complete..trust me..
When i was 5 years old, my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school , they asked me what i wanted to be when i grew up. I wrote down "happy" . They told me I didn't understand the assignment and I told them they didn't understand life.
i've just read my friend's blog about friendship..
i know what she feels now..losing a friend is like losing a part of our body.
there's a people who say that "the happiest business in all the world is that of making friends,
And no investment on the street pays larger dividends,
For life is more than stocks and bonds, and love than rate percent."
It's prove that friends are meant everything,
once u dissapointed them, they will never be the same. You must understand that.
But, if you feel dislike of something just let out all of your thoughts and just say whatever you want to say.
Not only it lessens your burden, people in fact appreciates you more for it.
Don't ever be afraid to communicate your mind, believe that a true friend will accept you, whoever you are, whatever it is..
"Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling five balls in the air.
You name them - work, family, health, friends, and spirit - and you're keeping all of these in the air.
You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back.
But the other four balls - family, health, friends, and spirit are made of glass.
If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged, or even shattered.
They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life." - Brian Dyson, CEO of Coca Cola Enterprises from 1959-1994
choices..
life is full of choices.
we have the right to become one of this human type,
as a good one or a bad one
being a good one is a better choice, but sometimes it can be worse.
there is no final say to which option is actually the best..
we can't choose what kind of family we live with
if i can, i want to live in a care and loveable family
once again its a choice
I love my family, who doesn’t?anyone?
But I can’t deny either that there are things I do not like or
coincide within my family.
sometimes i feel lonely, and really need someone to hear me,
but all i can do just end up crying all night long in my bed.
this family have created me, to become such a quite and lonely girl..
I just wonder why my family has to select the option of life which
I perceive as a wrong choice..
i believe, they are love each other, but i want a real love and care, thats all..
Berbicara tentang komputasi modern, pastinya tak akan lepas dari sosok yang satu ini.
Ia dikenal sebagai Bapak Komputasi Modern. Banyak karyanya yang masih dunia manfaatkan sampai hari ini.
Dialah John von Neumann (Neumann János), beliau lahir di Budapest, Hungaria, 28 Desember 1903 dan meninggal di Washington DC,
Amerika Serikat, 8 Februari 1957 pada umur 53 tahun.
Beliau adalah seorang matematikawan dari Hungaria-Jerman yang memberikan kontribusi penting di bidang fisika kuantum,
analisis fungsional, teori himpunan, ilmu komputer, ekonomi dan bidang lainnya yang berkaitan dengan matematika.
Von Neumann adalah pionir komputer digital modern dan penerapan teori operator di bidang mekanika kuantum.
Mendengarnya saja saya merinding, bapak ini belajarnya bagaimana yaa, di jaman yang sulit mendapat informasi seperti itu
dia bisa berjaya dan menghasilkan sesuatu yang besar bagi dunia.
Tentang pendidikannya, dulu Von Neumann meraih gelar Ph.D. di bidang
matematika dari Universitas Budapest pada usia 23 tahun.
Pada saat yang sama dia juga belajar teknik kimia di Swiss.
Antara tahun 1926 dan 1930, ia bekerja sebagai dosen di Berlin, Jerman.
Von Neumann kini diabadikan namanya sebagai arsitektur von Neumann,
yaitu arsitektur komputer yang banyak digunakan di sebagian besar sistem komputer non paralel,
karena dialah yang pertama kali mempublikasikan konsep tersebut.
Meski konsep ini kemudian dikembangkan oleh J. Presper Eckert dan John William Mauchly dalam
pengembangan komputer ENIAC, nama
von Neumann lah yang lebih dikenal sebagai penemu arsitektur komputer tersebut.
Sebagai generasi muda, kita perlu mencontoh jejaknya.
Paling tidak kita harus mengenal siapa sosoknya, berikanlah penghargaan padanya atas kontribusinya pada dunia teknologi.
Tak hanya sebagai pemakai temuannya, tapi kita perlu banyak belajar darinya.
siapa tahu bisa memotivasi diri untuk berbuat sesuatu, tak hanya untuk diri sendiri tapi untuk dunia..
he found the cheapest way to make the world richer
i feel my days seem so fast, all the things that i've done seem less meaningful
i want to be like him, i want to be like her or i want to be like you..
maybe you can make ur day more effective than me..all i can do just have fun, hang out, or something like that..*sigh
in my deepest mind , i want to be an effective girl too,
but i want to remind you something,
maybe you can get all the thing that u want to get, maybe u can do all the thing that u want to do
but one thing that u should know
sometimes the miles not as important as the essence of your day in your work
u should to enjoy your day, extract and evaluate it
don't be like machine, u must feel it not always see the number..
life is always goes on, u can't go back.. remember that guys..
resting my body 3 days ago, makes my mind work mooooore slowly
but i'm blessed, maybe its time to accumulate my spirit and power to make a 'thing'
that 'thing' is my responsible in this last semester, u know exactly how we called it.hehe
life's been pretty busy and running on a full speed.
i've been running too and chasing with time, with lil bit fear..
whether i don't know the result will be ended good or bad,
i know our efforts are meant something
i try to enjoy every second of my day with all my duty, as life feels so simple that way.
Monotonous, but an enjoyable one.
believe that someday we'll miss this bustle.. :)
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